Weekend turn-out Monday, Mar 30 2009 

Sunday I did my usual manic run around.  I forced myself to stop at 4pm.  I went and laid down in my bed for almost an hour…and did not a thang.  It was nice, but I felt guilty.

I was going to allow T to spend the night at her friends house from Sunday night to Monday and go to school from there.  That was until I found out that she didn’t have her textbook to complete her homework.  She pleaded her cause….irrationally, but plead she did.  She wanted me to see that if went over to her friends house, she has the book so they could both do the homework together.  How about NEGATIVE?  How about you get your act together so I don’t have to crack your skull.  She had the biggest attitude…as if?  Yeah my reasoning is all off.

Girls….GIRLS!!! And I signed up to take on additional?? What is wrong with me????

Bloody Mary Sunday, Mar 29 2009 

The message at church basically boiled down to taking time…me time.  Its funny cuz last Sunday I had the same revelation.  I’m running myself into the ground.  I’ve gotta find a way.

My church sponsored a blood drive.  The last time I donated blood was when Bird was sick and needed a transfusion.  R and I gave blood and I remembered that needle hurting like hell…my flash thought was “if this wasn’t for my baby..hmph”

Despite my last experience I donated blood.  The girls were NOT playing with the phlebotomist…they gave her an interview on the spot.  How much blood you taking?  How she gonna get it back?  She inserted the needle and I prayed the blood was flowing cuz there was NOT gonna be a do-over.  It sitll hurt like hell. In the 10-15 minutes they were like “Um…the bag is full…excuse me…excuse me…the bag is almost full..Mommy say something!” All of this while their mouths were stuffed with cheez-its and cookies from the donor table.

I survived…it was all about the snacks. 

Totally TM Appreciation Day! Thursday, Mar 26 2009 

TM and I had a conversation about a program that I would like to develop.  She offered some reference materials that we both thought would be helpful to me…wasn’t that nice? Well I received her package last night and I felt like a kid at Xmas! Thank you TM..you’re the sweetest!   TheCount may not approve of the UPS expense, but if you won’t tell I won’t tell. 

I know you’ve been feeling like a TM Appreciation Week should be ordered.  I’m not qualified to pull that off but certainly you deserve another TM Appreciation Day…thanks Doll!  I’m sooo excited.

Hitting it hard Wednesday, Mar 25 2009 

I was talking to my co-worker a couple of days ago about two women that are ALWAYS at the gym hitting it hard!  I described one as having a caesar, she’s just one huge puddle of sweat.  The other lady is BROLICK, and she reminds me of Vera de Milo,

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She’s really wide up top and small on the bottom. 

This morning I went to the gym and she came over to help me with this equipment that she could see I was struggling with.   She said “You have to always pull it up from here first”, simultaneously I turned to  face her to say thanks and LAWD the She IS a HE! The voice…the jacked up eyeliner…the face…Jim Carey….its a dude! *eyes stretched*

I’m bitter! Tuesday, Mar 24 2009 

just as bitter as this cold winter…because its cold! I woke up to 20 degree weather this am…watindawhurl??? *sucks teef*  I’m sick of wearing this North Face..sick sick sick!

Last night in my literature class we were comparing and contrasting  short stories.  I pointed out that a common thread was that none of these stories were happy.  They all had some major upset.  My professor responded with “Well how many people do you know that are happy?“.  I responded immediately and said that I’m happy and most people I knew were happy.  No one is running thru lily gardens all the time, but I don’t surround myself with people that are miserable.  I will shy away…its bad for my health. 

I enjoy  laughter..thats how I grew up.  I grew up with my mom tickling me or my aunt crackin’ jokes.  I can even recall being really young and my mom using a good laugh to take my mind off of a bruised knee or some other calamiy.  That continues to be my general disposition.  I’ve also learned how to encourage myself.  We obviously all have our low moments, but if the majority of your counterparts are always looking at the cup as half empty and woe is me, its time to switch dance partners.  Before long no matter how smooth your steps are your feet are gonna be all bruised up .

I recognize the irony of my post beginning with a complaint! LOL *I’m really laughing* 

Have a WONDERFUL day ya’ll and don’t forget to LAUGH!

Weekend turn-out Monday, Mar 23 2009 

Lets talk about sex….that wasnt the sermon title on Sabbath, but it might as well have been…MAN you could have heard a pin drop! He was like “can I get an amen…dont act like ya’ll not doing it”..comedy! Very good though, he covered male/female differences and our basic needs. He said a man’s #1 basic need is sex, and a womans #1 basic need is affection, and how generally we don’t understand that about each other. It got a lil rowdy a few times. He also touched on a few parenting issues…all in all good. My Pastor rocks!

I went to see ‘Taken’ with my girlfriend on Saturday night, that was a good movie. Watching those kinds of movies make me extra violent LOL. I got home around midnight and proceeded to henna my hair. Decided to take my tail to bed @ 2am.

Sunday I finished it up. I’m happy with the results. I took the girls to rehearsal n then T to her therapy appt that is 45 mins away (ugh). Food shopping dropped off n picked up my laundry, got my brakes fixed….didn’t get to see my grandmother in the nursing home. I seriously have to find a way to simplify my life. Though I got so much done, there was plenty undone..like re-doing Bird’s hair and buying her new rights cuz Lord knows she tears thru tights daily…big ole gaping holes…makes no’ sense. Oh let me not neglect to mention R had his girls from Sat evening thru Sunday morning…yay for him and them.

* I’m typing on my blasted iPhone lest I feel the pressure from S23..fill in any gram errors pls n thx ;-) *

Spring….HA! Friday, Mar 20 2009 

I’m still disgruntled about the snow, but anyway…Spring is a sign of renewal, new beginnings..I figured this would be a good time to reflect on my new year goals and see how I’m doing.

Health – I haven’t changed my cooking habits much.  I slacked off my exercise regimen for 2 weeks. I’m back on track now and happy bout it!

Finances – Ay yi yie…I needs a stimulus check..please and thank you.   I cut down on my bagel consumption significantly.  I also have been doing a really good job bringing lunch more often than I ever have.  Last week I spent $1k in unexpected expenses towards this vehicle of mine *sigh*.  However I also started the college saving plans for the girls.  So there was a hiccup, but I’m still making strides. 

Spiritually – I have seen marked improvement in how I handle situations. A perfect case in point would be how I handled that troll.  It doesn’t take much for me to flip out.  When I was younger I would get so enraged my mother would say that I was like a lion, and if I did’t cut it out I would have a stroke.  She’s a nurse  and was always throwing some dire medical consequence at me..lol.   Besides that, I’ve not stayed on target in terms of inviting a person per week, but I have been extending invitations.  I absolutely feel like I’m experiencing a closer walk.  In the past I have stewed over situations that have gotten under my skin, now I find myself really trying to put it before the Lord and leave it there.  I’m dealing with a situation right now that has required me to do this.  It’s not resolved yet, but when it does I’ll let ya’ll how this nonsense has played out.

Parenting – Oh MY! Well I’m really happy to report that I am taking more time.  Last night T was working on a report, one that she didn’t tell me about until Wednesday night. It was around 9:00 and she was still typing away, for a moment I wanted to fuss and tell her to take her tail to bed.  I took a second and then became very proud.  She was knocking that report and tho she waited until the last minute she was getting it done.  I’m sure she was tired, but in that moment I saw her work ethic.  Now next time I expect her to start on her report earlier. 

As a foster parent the girls that come are needy.  Its like trial by fire parenting…patience is a must have.  It’s a good thing. 

This was not mentioned in my ‘09 goals, but I’m also proud to report I received a letter from my Dean congratulating me on my academic achievement.  My goal is to continue to maintain an above 3.7 average.

Is it a bird..is it a plane? NO Friday, Mar 20 2009 

its flippin’ snowin’!!! ARGHHHHHHHH  WTH?  Why don’t you nice southern women send some sunshine my way?! As much as I love boots I can rock a fly sandal too….please.

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GCA Thursday, Mar 19 2009 

Those are the initials to my high school alma mater.  I’ve re-connected with alot of folx from high school via fa.ce.bo.ook and its been so nice.  I’ve decided to plan a GCA reunion brunch.   It’ll be this time next month.  I can’t wait to see them.  Have you guys ever hosted a brunch? Any tips?  I’ve never been to a reunion before.  I was thinking a couple of reunion type games would be fun…or would that be corny??

Random..just this morning Wednesday, Mar 18 2009 

I got up this morning and worked out!! I’ve been slacking in this area for a couple of weeks now.  I went to tarjay last night and purchased a cute new tee and a pair of rollover jersey pants.  That was inspiration enough.  I get there around 5 am, there aren’t alot of people there at that time so its realllly obvious when somebody does a once over whenever someone walks by OR you catch ‘em staring thru the mirror.

When I get off my express bus I have to walk a few blocks to get to my job and that can sometimes be a feat.  I’ve dubbed dumb drivers kamikaze drivers…Imma start calling dumb walkers kamikaze walkers…the kind that walk all zigzag, stepping, bumping…a mess.  I’m walking straight to reach the corner and this fool is walking VERY close and veering into me like I don’t exist…so I start saying hellllllllo..like he’s crazy…he starts looking at me like I’m crazy..still veering in..so at that point my eyes are STRETCHED…he wind up crossing in front of me all the while giving me double takes…so when I purposely stepped on his heel he should have been prepared for that and for stretched eyes…he kept it moving.

I stopped for a bagel this a.m., I usually make small talk with the cashier we both complain about how tired we are…I said I’m going to marry rich next time, she says “you’re not married“…”nope…divorced“…she says “thats goooood” we laughed..she preggers and said its too late for her.

I have a feeling my foster daughter is going to break my heart.  She’s 14 and has alot of potential, but I’m not sure if she can get past some major issues that affect her.  I wish I could scoop her up and shelter her from it all, she should have better.  I got a call from her math teacher yesterday that she’s totally unprepared, no bookbag…nothing.  I know the teacher must think I’m some sort of loser.  This morning I gave her a brand new notebook, and pen.   Right before I got on my bus she said..”I have a feeling I’m going to get jumped today” and shrugged her shoulders.  I’ll need to call her school today.

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