life and my girls and parenting 10:56 am
You’ve heard about T and Bird aka Rosco and many of their shenanigans. BTW, T was almost left on the curb the other night. I surely would have been the next mother arrested for leaving her kid. This kid cut cheese in the car and there was NO escape! I could not breathe!
This was her bday dinner. I told you these kids cuts up!
Jesus take the wheel and To Do and life and my girls and prayer and school life, school 1:48 pm
This means finish school by 2011 (80 credits in two years), prepare for my LSAT, get a good score so that I get accepted to a decent law school, go to law school f/t, and graduate.
In order to accomplish all of this before she graduates high school I have to not skip a beat.
It started with me realizing that I’ll have load up on my courses in order to finish by 2011. I went to complete my financial aid yesterday and was told that if I had things my way (12 summer creds+32 fall/spring creds), I’ll owe the school $11,000+ for this school year*gasp*. That’s when I felt the dam about to break. If I stayed home and birthed babies for a living and taxed the system this wouldn’t even be an issue. The truth is…if I had gone to college when I was supposed to this wouldn’t be an issue *shame*.
The financial aid worked out. I’m scheduled to attend both summer semesters and take 14 credits in the fall. Once I finish summer I’ll have 60 credits and qualify for more money. Then, I should be able to take 16 credits in the Fall and again in the Spring.
Thankfully, today my emotions are a bit more in check. I’m pretty hard on myself. Yesterday before I reached the financial aide office, I prayed that any door that is not for my benefit will be closed…in all areas of my life. I’ll have to pray that my faith sustains me as that prayer is surely answered.
Have you overloaded courses before? I have a plan of sorts. I will be eliminating some things in my life in order to make this feasible. I’ll share later.
The amount of debt that I’m going to be in after this is all said and done is enough to make me hyperventilate all on its own!
Uncategorized 8:59 am
Mr. Court…thats what I’ll call the guy that said he wanted to court me. He really doesn’t deserve a name aside from the fact that there may be more tomfoolery coming up. He’s been pressing me hard to see him again.
Friday
Him: Are you gonna be able to leave the house today?
Me: Prolly not.
Saturday
Him: Are you daughters doing better?
Me: I took them to the doctor, they have the flu.
Him: Oh ok so its nothing serious than a hard flu. Am I gonna be able to see you today?
Me: Probably not a good idea since they’re sick.
This continued on Sunday and Monday with him asking if we could watch the game together Monday night. I declined. Tuesday on FB he im’d me and it went like this.
9:00amhim
so inaccessible
I need to see more of you Kells… make some time!!!
not inaccessible…just rough few days…i don’t mind us hanging out, however i have to be careful becuz we have different beliefs..this can’t progress to a serious rlshp
then I won’t push the issue, if you want to hang out let me know
ok
Phew…we’re good right? Except….
make time for me this week if you can
I wanna take you out again
i’ll let u know
He replied with something like..”just make it happen” and “I can go to church with you on Saturday too”. I replied “I SAIDDD I’ll let you know”. I never got back to him. I know I said in my other post that I think he’s odd…maybe he’s really nuts. Only an hour passed and he’s asking me out again? I posted a status update about me watching the game Monday night. He commented saying he wishes he were there. I should have never accepted his friend request. Ugh!
So now? As I read over our exchanges it seems that maybe I’m not be straight forward enough. I have a hard time doing that when I think someone could be “cool”. Or was I straight forward enough for a reasonable person?
On paper he’s good. He’s smart, he’s an engineer, no kids, never married, I even liked it at first that he was assertive, but he lost me with that open marriage crap and being on the fence about “marriage”. I’m not wasting my time. Period….and he’s weird.
life and my girls and parenting parenting 9:13 am
I hope you all enjoyed your Memorial weekend festivities. I, unfortunately did not partake in one bbq burger or spoonful of macaroni salad!
The girls got sick wit it! It was a wrap starting Thursday night. I took them to the doctor Saturday morning…I got really concerned. They’ve never been sick at the same time….ever. They both were battling high fevers T was complaining of headache and severe leg soreness. It was a mess. I was thinking meningitis. It was confirmed that it was the f.lu.
I should note that both R and I took them to the doctor. I suppose I should give “credit” for lack of a better word. He stepped up.
As a result, my days were spent indoors quarantined with them. I did take Bird out for short periods on Sunday and Monday. We both had cabin fever. T didn’t wanna leave the house..ya know…cuz she grown and all. Yesterday I took her to the park with her bike. After being eaten alive by lil black bugs I was ready to go. I swear one of those things was nursing on me….they were everywhere…ick! A mani/pedi was an order.
I’m happy to be back at work. Did I just say that??? They are doing much better now, and their school will re-open tomorrow. OH yeah..forgot to say that their school closed on Thursday due to H.1.N1 precautions. So many kids are sick.
Jesus take the wheel and dating and life and parenting and prayer dating, parenting 11:19 pm
The girls’ school is closed due to swi.ne f.lu precautionary measures. Seems like the school closed due to a number of kids having fevers and other f.lu like symptoms. Well two of those kids are mine *sigh* Meds, vitamins and liquids. That’s the diet.
I met a guy online last week via a social site. He reached out to me although my profile stated I’m not there to date/mate/or hook up. Then it turned out that we’re both S.D.A., so we have the same religious beliefs. (A+) We went out for a bite this evening . He’s really smart..nerd smart. I like that. He’s a good conversationalist, but he’s odd. He started talking about how he’s on the fence about marriage and he doesn’t really believe in it. He feels that more people should just say that they want an open marriage. Isn’t that an oxymoron? This is the same guy who stated he wanted to court me. *sigh*
Da Principal contacted me yeseterday. He asked about the girls, school, and work. Then he asked me to let him know when I’d be free so he could take me to dinner to celebrate me doing well this semester. I told him I’d let him know.
He left me a message today. He was cracking up about an exchange we had. I listened to it no less than 10 times.
Dating for me has been interesting. Every guy I’ve spent a significant amount of time with has doubled back at some point. Despite my FABULOUS personality, I think its because I didnt go “there”.
I’m not going to work tomorrow. I have to monitor the chirren and pray that I don’t get sick.
Good to know and Jesus take the wheel and life faith, life 6:30 am
Last night I took my car to my mom’s (retired) mechanic. For about a week or so it’s been giving me serious signs that it doesn’t want to start. I wanted his opinion before I took it to the shop. He had me turn the ignition over a few times to diagnose what he thought the problem would be. He gave me his final word. I got back in the car to go the auto shop and the friggin car won’t start!
It seems every time I get some money saved an unexpected expense rears its ugly head. I was pissed last night to say the least. How am I ever supposed to build a nest egg when this keeps happening? I don’t feel secure. I need an emergency fund. Although, my rational mind knew that if it’s happening it must be for a reason, my emotionally combustive mind wasn’t trying to hear it.
I had to get it towed to a shop. I kept asking God..”does this mean you want me to get a car sooner than later?” He didn’t answer…he does that sometimes ya know.
When I arrived at the shop I met “Jerome in the House”, and he got on my LAST nerve.
This morning I heard a song that I used to love (I heart Pandora). I was reminded that if I put my faith in variables I will always be disappointed. Men, money, friends, and [fill in the blank] will always change. Placing my faith in a constant, Christ, the ultimate invariable I will
never be disappointed. I’m gonna have to learn to let go and let God. My car is still jacked up…its still in the shop…I have NO idea how much it is going to cost, but whatever it is will be fine.
Jesus take the wheel and life and my girls and parenting and school parenting 11:21 am
Yesterday my mom took the girls to the dentist for me. Turns out lil Bird needs braces. Her mouth is chock full of teeth. There’s some old man somewhere wishing he had that problem. She needs braces. The dentist told T she could use braces as well…something about her bite. It ain’t that serious…I’m sure.
So I pick them up from aftercare and they get in the car and chatting it up about what color braces they’re gonna have. Bird wants blue…T wants pink and purple. Um excuse me? Nice how they talk about putting all of my vacation money on their teeth. I know this is going to cost me a pretty penny…even if it is just Bird. Why Lord…why???
Yesterday was the last day of class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For a whole 12 days *note sarcasm*. Summer classes start on June 1st. I want to take a break…I could take a break, but I really wanna just get it done.
As it stands I’m slated to get an A in my Logic and Argumentation class, and an A+ in my literature class. For my Human Body class the jury is still out. He didn’t return the mid-term, or the previous research paper I submitted. I turned in my last research paper yesterday. I’ve got my fingers crossed.
Jesus take the wheel and life and my girls and parenting parenting 10:37 am
I got a call from T’s teacher yesterday. It seems her mouth and her attitude have been getting her in trouble…again. Her teacher called me last week Wednesday but I moved to another floor. So it sat in my old voice mail box until yesterday. When we spoke lo and behold..not only did she call me, but she sent a note home over the weekend. I guess T forgot about it huh?
When I picked the girls up I played it off real nice and cool. Once we got in the house I got settled, made my way to her bedroom to find said note. I called her while I’m reading and this lil/big girl had the nerve to ever so slightly raise the corner of her lip in disgust. I.WENT.IN. If I wasn’t sore before I’m sore now.
Not for nothing, but no one likes a disrespectful kid. Teachers have a hard enough time. They certainly should not have to deal with some flip lip. T’s teacher is a WONDERFUL lady. She genuinely cares. The principal got wind of what was going on. He’s requested a mtg with me and her teacher. I’m sending R. I don’t have the time to take off from work. Let me him deal. It seems she needs to hear it…feel it…from someone other than me. I normally don’t tell him becuz corporal is all he seems to know. However, in this case..she deserves it. He’ll be going IN.
By this time next year T will probably be taller than me. I’ll be looking up at my 12 year old. I’ve never been lax in the discipline dept…ever…but it seems like Miss T is really smelling herself. She’s always had a very strong…stubborn personality. She’s just going to have to learn how to use that gift for good and not evil. I will be her kryptonite. I took her tv and her ds li.te..she’ll have to earn it back. Right now I’m sure she hates me…I’m the worst mother on the planet…evil…just EVIL. I can live with that.
Is anyone else raising a pre-teen? What is up?
Saturday I didn’t wear those shoes. I couldn’t if I wanted to. For some reason my legs are killling me. It started on Friday evening. It feels like I’ve done a gazillion calf lifts! So I wore flats…I forgot that I had pewter flats and it worked out well. (more…)
Jesus take the wheel and life life 9:34 am
Far too often I’ve personally encountered a woman’s insecurity. Insecurity is something that I suppose alot of women suffer from in one form or another. However, to wear it soo blantantly is not becoming…not all attractive.
Me receiving that friend request from R’s current SCREAMED insecurity. We’re “cool”…cool as in..I no longer wanna mace her, but we are not Friends. After I got over the initial shock I felt sorry for her. Later on I found out that not only did she request me, but she requested his brother as well. Then she had R reach back out to his brother to find out some of his other siblings last names so she could request them as well. Siblings that I’ve established a relationship with over the years. She is trying to do an official “swoop down”. If you don’t know their last names its cuz ya’ll AIN’T FRIENDS!
R is not interested in social sites like FB. He’s known for a couple of weeks now that I was on FB and had been chatting it up with his siblings. I told him. He is not interested in keeping in contact with his siblings which is why his brother had to call me to get R’s number. I say all of that to say that its ME. I’m the problem. She hears that I’m on FB with his people and it’s killing her. She did it before with his mom’s side of the family.
I was able to peep some of her profile and her status is engaged *lookin’ ’round*….Boo…who you engaged to?? Does HE know ya’ll engaged??? Which brings me to this point. Women who have been with a man for how ever long…walking around calling him your husband…your fiancee. Why?? He’s not. If ya’ll dating forever fine…but why perpertrate something that’s not true?
If you have never met him in front of a Judge/Priest/Pastor…he’s your boyfriend NOT your husband. If he’s not put a ring on it…he’s NOT your fiancee. What is this like junior high? Ya’ll close like play cousins?? If he ain’t put a ring on it why would he deserve that much credit??
I’mma need women everywhere to help your sistas out….each one…reach one. This isn’t cute. In fact its the root of everything wrong with how we interact with each other. It is the reason why women think its okay to smile in your face and sleep with your man (if possible). The reason why a guy can be HALF of a man and have women fighting over him. The reason why it can be so difficult to keep female friends….the list goes on.
We gotta get it together.
