Halloween Friday, Oct 30 2009 

I’ve really never done Halloween.  Growing up in the Bx most of the good kids had some fears around this “holiday”.  Girls were concerend about having eggs thrown at them, or Nair hair removal thrown your hair.  It was expected to see a bus go by that was just riddled with eggs.  The extreme cases were fights.  Now with these gangs it has gotten so out of control.  I’ve been hearing rumors about the gangs hitting up certain middle and high schools to jump kids.  How does a “holiday” incite such violence?

How was Halloween when you were growing up? How is it now?

My 2 cents Friday, Oct 30 2009 

That B12 vitamin is the B.Izness.  I feel a NOTICEABLE difference when I take it.  I say go get that.  I purchased it from Vita.min Shopp.e

What kind of mascara do you wear? I normally where Lancome Definicils…it’s great, but a lil on the pricey side.  I decided to try Stiletto by May.bel.line.  I’m not impressed…not even a lil bit.  You would think with a name like Stiletto! Thumbs down…I like full lashes and this is just a tease. stiletto

I purchased Deva Set it Free over the weekend.  When I first used it on dry hair I hated it.  It felt very tacky, but when I woke up I had good, shiny, defined curls.  I even got great results on 2nd day without re-twisting.  setitfree

I used it again Wednesday night.  This time I deep conditioned my hair and applied it to my wet hair after I rinsed out the conditioner.  I LOOOOOVE IT!  I’m working on 3 day hair right now, without re-twisting AND I got a hair compliment this morning…can you believe it?  This is a keeper.3dayfro

Love Letter from Roscoe Thursday, Oct 29 2009 

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His voice Wednesday, Oct 28 2009 

Last week I was a bit shook up at work when I received an email from my office manager.  I had already received my evaluation so it couldn’t be that.  My mind went to the worse case scenario.  People have been getting laid off here and there…quietly.  At that moment I said to God…”you didn’t tell me about this”.  

I was 18 years old, and  I worked for a very small stationary company as an accounts payable clerk.  There was alot of crap that went on in that office.  People yelling and arguing back and forth.  It made me so uncomfortable.  I stayed because my mother told me to just ignore it, and I knew I had a bigger goal.  I remember bringing home $210 every week.  I was RICH! 

I got ready for work that morning, sitting on the edge of my bed I reached for my underwear drawer and God said “You’re going to be fired today”.  I did a scooby doo “ahruuuuu”…I let it sit for 3 seconds and then I continued getting myself together.  When Mr.  Unz called “Kelly…come here” it hit me again and I knew what was coming.  I wasn’t on probation…I had never received a warning….I hadn’t screwed up anything, but I knew what was coming.  The whole way home I kept saying to myself “I KNEW IT“…I was amazed.

It was 2005.  I had to drive 30 mins (w/traffic) every morning to bring the girls to school.   They loaded in the back seat – knowing the rules they buckled up.  I was getting myself situated when God said “You’re going to be in a car accident this morning”.  No scooby doo this time, but I let what I just heard marinate for 2 seconds.  I then turned to the girls and said “Are your seatbelts on?” They said answered yes and I said “are you sure?“  T raised her brow at me…she was 7 years old…not much as changed.  I insisted they pull their belts tight just to be sure.  My seatbelt was secured, but I thought “well let me pull my seat back…if the airbag deplows I don’t want my face to get messed up“.  I did all that and then set on my way.  I dropped the girls off at school and then headed to where I park the car so that I could jump on my bus.  I was 2 minutes away from my parking spot.  I headed towards my green light when I was slammed into by a car trying to make a quick left turn before I reached the intersection.  Her timing placed her front fender right where my front tire and door were.  With my head resting on my steering wheel I said “This is it“. 

I had taken extra precautions when I heard the voice, but it wasn’t a dark cloud weighing over my head.  I wasn’t waiting for this major car crash to come, but here it was.  We both walked away unharmed.  There was damage to my vehicle, but it was repaired.  I shared this account with someone once and I was asked “well why did you drive that day?“.  I drove because I wasn’t told NOT to drive…I was simply warned.   However, if I had not driven that day how would I know that that was really His voice speaking to me?  How would I know that His hand that purposefully kept me from harm?  How could I build on my personal experience that He knows the beginning from the end and that sometimes he’ll let me in on what he knows, so that I can understand that He’s got my back?

There have been several times when I’ve had similar occurances.  As a result of my experiences I have become very careful when I hear His voice cautioning me.   I encourage you to develop your ear so that it is in tune with his voice.  God speaks.

It wasn’t the worst case scenario, but I am NOT happy about the change.  I do know that He has my back come what may.

Weekend turn-out Tuesday, Oct 27 2009 

I went to the spa for a 90 min aromatherapy massage on Sunday.  I was in the magical hands of my dude Sass.  He did all he was supposed to do and more.  If he could hear my thoughts I wonder what he would say?  Would he feel the same way about me that I feel about him?  He worked out places on my neck that I didn’t know exist and that’s when I felt for sure…he is my future husband…he’s GOT to be! lol  I’ll be back on 11/29.

Are ya’ll watching Amazing Race???  That guy is wayyyyy more patient that I am.  I woulda been in a bad way with Suzie Q after not going down the blasted slide!  It IS Amazing Race…did she not think she’d encounter heights on the show??

I went to see “Good Hair” and took Bird along.  There was some profanity that I had to shelter her lil ears from.  I enjoyed it.  I laughed…a lot.  I was a bit disturbed and the scalping ceremony.  The hair show was uh…interesting.  I came away thinking that I’m in the wrong industry.

Have you seen the movie? How was ur weekend?

Octopus arms Thursday, Oct 22 2009 

I am a planner.  I sit down and meticulously map out what I have to do to achieve xyz.  I’ve shared with you my plans to take x amount of credits for the upcoming semesters so that I can reach my target graduation date.

Last night me and another woman were called out of class to meet with an advisor.  When we reached her office she had paperwork already set out on her desk for us to sign. *eyes stretched*  She proceeds to tell us that we need to take a class starting Monday night.  I sat back calmly, yet defiantly and told her I can’t do another course right now…I’m already taking 16 credits.  Without a bat of her eye or a break in her stride she says “You have to“.  There is absolutely nothing I hate more than to be told or forced to do something…especially when I have good reason as to why I can not do it. 

My response to her was “I have a full plate right now…is there any flexibility because I can’t“.  She says “Well you can’t graduate without it, you can drop one of your other courses and take it next semester“.  “I’ve always had a lot of respect for this woman, but why is she bringing up graduation issues when I have several semesters to tackle before I reach that plateau??? *breathe*  “I.can’t”  Seeing that we were at a stalemate she left the office, and returned with the campus director.  GREAT!

She comes in with all of her bobble head animation “Kelly…what is it?  You have to take this course now…you just have to” *note that that really wasn’t a question; no one gives a sam hill as to why I can’t take it*  I’m silent.  Then she whispers If it’s financial don’t worry…I’ll give you a retention”.  I resigned, and she left with a directive for me to email her in the morning. 

I sat down now so frustrated and overwhelmed that my eyes filled with tears.  I PLAN!!!  This was someone elses’ oversight that I didn’t have this course by now.  No I can’t drop what I already have and take it next semester.  Next semester I’ll be attending an LSAT prep course that’ll have me in class two nights a week…a weekend included, and taking 12 credits at the college.

It became clear to me that this was a crack down.  They were audited and now they have to do damage control in order to be in compliance.  It just sucks for me that now I’ll be away from home and the girls an extra night.  All of my other responsibilities that are already vying for time will now be condensed into one less day.

I’m not complaining…now.  I’m really just sharing.  I’m going to roll with the punches and do what I’ve always done, and give it my all.  I’m going to do my best to grow octopus arms because clearly I’ll need it.  I’ll buy stock in red bull because buying a lifelong supply to carry me through this semester…the stock is sure to rise!

B12 Wednesday, Oct 21 2009 

I just purchased today.  I’ll give a proper review in a week.  Something has to give.

Random clutter Wednesday, Oct 21 2009 

I’ve wanted to blog, but when there’s sooooo much going on in my brain I can’t do a single thing.

I have lunch with a co-ed multi-cultural group.  We laugh sooo much sometimes I nearly pee on myself.  On Friday we were talking about vitamins when Ram mentioned that he likes to take B12 shots…gives energy etc.  I inquired more because if its that good I need that in my life stat! He went on to say that he gets them from his boyfriend.  As a result of his boyfriends’ HIV status he needs them.  My reaction was “wow”…then he said that he was HIV positive as well…..”wow”.  We talked about this for awhile and his numbers are low enough that he does not need medication.  I felt really grateful that medicine has progressed enough that being HIV does not have to mean it’s a death sentence. 

It also made me wonder…are folx really STILL having unprotected secks???? SERIOUSLY???  I don’t think I updated ya’ll on this yet, but remember the girl that left her son with my friend and then went missing?  Well she was found….her body that is.  It seems that her boyfriend killed her because he discovered that she gave him HIV…speechless.  Do you know of friends that are this careless with their bodies??  You might want to share this story.

I did the breast cancer walk on Sunday.  On Sunday, the weather was cold, rainy and windy.  WICKED.  R picked up me and the girls.  Before we left the house he kept wondering out loud if I would be warm enough.  I had on leggings, two long sleeved tees, and my vest.  He dropped us off at the registration booth so that he could go and park the car.  We were outside a good 2 minutes when I cried aloud.  It was FREEZING!  I called his cell and we headed back to the house.  We changed clothes and made it back without missing anything.

The walk was a little emotional.  It felt great to be united with so many people for the same cause.  We were doing a great thing.  I plan to do the walk next year as well.

School is going well, but I’m feeling a little overwhelmed.  I’m not even sure why.

Another guy in my lunch crew has been coping with his boyfriend’s cancer.  This guy is only 24 years old.  Yesterday he was rushed into emergency surgery, and it wasn’t looking good.  I got word before I left work that he pulled through the surgery, but that his condition was still very critical.  I’ve been praying hard for him.

Oy vie…what’s some good news???  The girls are doing great.  They’ve had some moments of civility over the past few days.  I’ve been putting some funk in my work wear dress…no pics…ya’ll ain’t ready…lol

I purchased a pair of grey shoes yesterday…I’ve had them in my thoughts for like 3 weeks.  I’m glad that I waited…the price was sweeeet.  They make me happy. 

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I’m starting to plan my holiday party.

I’ve had so many opportunities to witness in the past week or two.  It’s been great…and I’m thankful to be used.

I’ll be making a trip to NC in January.  I want to scope out my (potentially)new state in the winter season, and then I’ll visit again in April or May. 

This is for us Nerdgirl “”Procrastination is the grave in which opportunity is buried” ~Author unknown

*exhale*

Random?

Weekend forecast? Friday, Oct 16 2009 

TGIF! We’re blessed to have made it through yet another week.  What’s going on in your neck of the woods for the weekend?

I don’t think I shared this, but I’ll be participating in the Breast Cancer walk on Sunday, the 18th.  We’ll have customized tee’s and walking in honor of Maggie, my MIL.  Is that strange that I never stopped calling her my MIL?  R and I divorced, but we didn’t.  Anyway…the whole family is walking.  She would be moved.

My camera failed me back in August, so I’ll need to get one before Sunday.  I want to take plenty of pics.  I’m 99% sure I’ll be getting a Can.on this time around.  It seems the quality pics that I admire all come from those power.shot cameras.

I have re-twisted my hair since Tuesday night.  This feels liberating…twisting is a royal pain sometimes.  I wore my hair in a fro..I was slightly concerned when T gave me that look this morning.  I decided to roll with it anyway…would be the first time I had a bad hair day.  What do you think?

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Have a good one folx!

More than that Thursday, Oct 15 2009 

I saw a young man this morning with his pants tight AND hung low.  I felt something stirring inside that made me want to slap him…really.   I started to quicken my steps and just when I came within steps he pulled them up and pulled down his shirt.  Ugh

I don’t have a son, but I have girls.  I’m telling them now that this is unacceptable.  Don’t even entertain a guy like that with eye contact.  I am so tired of seeing this anti-productive trend perpetuated.  It’s horrible.  It’s really only “our” people or other people trying to act like us.  A man can not be about business or accomplish anything with his pants low.  It’s just physically impossible. 

I don’t have sons, but I’m going to try to find a way to start reaching out to young men about this.  It makes us look dumb.  I know they think its just fashion.  It’s much more than that.  It’s a mindset.  Each one reach one.

How do you feel about this?

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