My 1st love

Some weeks ago I shared my love at first sight story.  Periodically, prior to that…I would spend time with God, and pray for my future.  It included that unknown special someone.  I would get really detailed in my prayer.  I would pray for his family, career, difficulties, health, etc…but I was VERY sporadic with it.  I thought I’d give God a hand.  You know…help those who help themselves….UNTIL, my love at first sight experience.  I shut it down.  No websites, no special hook up cards, no going to chill at a spot where a cutie might walk by and I catch his eye.  I’ve never been more certain in hearing the Lord tell me to knock it off, relax and go sat down somewhere.  Since then, my prayer life in this area has been refueled.

I have a friend who I bounce things off of occasionally.  He’s one of a small few who I can chat with on things that are spiritually discerned.  Today was his birthday, yet I got off the phone with him feeling like I’d received the gift.  He said “Kelly, I want you to check this poetry video out.  It reminds me of you”  This has totally filled me up.  I could never have come up with the words to articulate them the way she has…just beautiful

Da Principal reached out to me recently with some serious…almost kinda talk.  He went as far as to say, that while I may have cared for him, HE was in love with me o_O

Here I am refueled…again.  If I am meant to remain single, then so be it.  He is my first love, the very definition of love.

AND I dig her hair.

Now what?

Greg G (10:44 PM):  Hey

Greg G (10:44 PM):  How are u?

Kelly (10:44 PM):  I’m good, how are you?

Greg G (10:45 PM):  Same ol

Greg G (10:45 PM):  Work work and work

Kelly (10:45 PM):  I’m sure…with this weather especially…i can relate

Greg G (10:46 PM):  Yep

Greg G (10:46 PM):  So what’s new with u

Kelly (10:47 PM):  not a thang

Kelly (10:47 PM):  school school and school

Kelly (10:48 PM):  i’m applying to law schools right now

Greg G (10:49 PM):  Nice nice

Greg G (10:49 PM):  How was your Christmas

Kelly (10:50 PM):  Xmas was ok….for the kids

Greg G (10:50 PM):  Lol@for the kids

Greg G (10:51 PM):  How’s dating life?

Kelly (10:51 PM):  non-existent

Kelly (10:51 PM):  almost non-existent

Greg G (10:51 PM):  I want another date with u

Kelly (10:52 PM):  At this point I don’t want to date for sport

Greg G (10:52 PM):  It’s not for sport

Kelly (10:54 PM):  I would only date someone who I think would be and who would want to be a good husband for me

Greg G (10:55 PM):  Ok but u can’t determine that without being around that person and dating a few times

Greg G (10:56 PM):  I’m looking for long term as well

Kelly (10:56 PM):  you believe in open marriages dude

Greg G (10:56 PM):  I said I don’t knock it down

Greg G (10:56 PM):  Is it what I want? No

Greg G (10:57 PM):  But for some ppl it’s what’s best for them

Greg G (10:57 PM):  I don’t like to tell ppl how to live their lives nor do I like anyone else to judge or tell others how to live their life

Kelly (10:58 PM):  understood

Greg G (11:00 PM):  So when are u available?

Greg G (11:00 PM):  I’m off tomorrow and Thursday

Ok, so do I give him a LIST of alll of the qualities that I know makes him unfit for me???????

Dating pt III

I have class with this dude.  He’s so smart, articulate, and cool.  That’s what attracts me to him.  He has a cute baby face.   My only pause is he’s overweight.  Do you watch the biggest loser?  I want to give you a visual.  He’s not entry overweight.  He’s like, been on the ranch for a few weeks overweight.  I guess me acknowledging that I have a crush says something for this really not being a big issue huh?

I’m having my holiday party/game night next Saturday night.  I’ve sent him an invite.  If he comes, I can see how he mingles.

In other news, there was a man that had a crush on ME at a former job.  We went out a couple of times but it never went anywhere.  He’s an attractive man, with a really nice build, but I wasn’t really into it.  We’ve connected again via FB.  We’re going out for dinner Sunday evening.

We’ll see…keep ya posted.  Oh yea, he smoked…turn off.

Dating pt II

This is sooo not me, but I took a chance.

I blogged a good while ago about I guy that I like.  My only “issue” was that he was short.  Oh yeah, and that he didn’t know that I liked him, and I surely couldn’t tell if he felt the same.

We exchanged an email about an issue that he needed to advise me on.  I replied at the end and then I said “I know this from left field, but I have a lil crush on you.  No action necessary, sometimes these kinda things are just flattering to know” I hit the reply button, and RAN out of the room.  Punk much?  Initiating is fine, but I still won’t be easy.  Men may say they want a woman to initiate, but I think it takes the hunt out of it, which we know men like.  I’ve been told men really only want a woman to initiate in one area *eyes stretched*

12 hour passed and no reply! I’m freaking out.  OMG! Did I make a mistake? I felt like I covered my bases.  I’m a beautiful woman, and sometimes people don’t initiate for whatever reason.  I had a small conversation last week with a woman from my church.  In a nut shell, she told me that people do acknowledge me.  They know me by my shoes.  My mouth fell wide open.  Then she said that it’s been said if I’m single than “what hope do we have”.  That was a huge compliment in my opinion.  That gave me some courage to step out of my comfort zone.  I really wanted him to know.  It didn’t matter that much if he couldn’t act on it, and I didn’t want him to feel uncomfortable.  Now if he wanted to purse something, then he could and wouldn’t have to worry about rejection.

24 hours later and still no response. *sad face hung low*  I should have NEVER put myself out there.  I know I said no action necessary, but it’s just plain rude to not respond AT ALL.  I made a mistake.

This morning! He replied.  I heard from someone else that he was driving from Boston on business.  He addresses our first matter, and then says “BTW…flattery can be nice ) (that’s my blush icon)…but I can’t take action due to conflicts…talk to you soon.

I’m good with that.  Have you ever expressed your crush to a man.  This isn’t something that I would make a practice of.  I would have to admit it did make me feel like a big girl!

Dating pt I

I’ve not had a date in a long time.  For the most part I’ve been good with that….almost preferable.  My girl Evie says I’m a home body.  I wouldn’t agree with that because when my gf’s have something I go.  My reality is that I’m busy and I’m not on a hunt.  If it comes….great.

At the moment, I have two crushes.  It was three up until a month ago.  Let me tell you what happened with him.  Dude goes to my church.  I’ve crushed on his swag (I know this word is overdone, but it’s all I can come up with.  If you know a more relevant term, please let me know.) for a long time.  He completed medical school, but I crushed on him before I even knew he was in med school, but you know darn well that up the ante in my mind.

Evie and I have not been friends for a long time, about a year and a half.  She’s always trying to figure out how she can get me on a date, during one of these sessions I dropped this crush on her.  She got her brain wheels turning and said that I need to approach him.  She suggested me talking to him about the stresses of post undergrad school.  I wasn’t stirred by her suggestion, and I’m not a “I have a crush on you let me see how I can strike interaction with you” kinda gal.  This is what I shared with her.  In church, we have this time where we greet our visitors and then each other…a handshake, hug, or kiss…one of the three.  I feel as if he goes out of his way to NOT have face to face with me.  It’s like he could greet someone in the row in front of me, I’m on the end and he’ll ignore everyone in the row just because I’m in it.  I’m convinced.

A bit over a month ago the pastor had him come up and congratulated him on a new position.  He was just hired to be a medical analyst for a high profile sports channel.  When Evie found out she wanted to beat me.  Funny thing is I’ve never seen him with a woman before, in all the years.  That day he had a lady with him.  She was super skinny. *shrug* If that’s what he likes,  I on’t even like him anymore…hmph

*please take this with a grain of salt, if you knew me, knew me, you would.  I’m NOT hating, but my crush evaporated.

Then today happens.  During the greeting time  I could see out of the corner of my eye him standing behind me greeting someone else.  I hesitated a good 4 seconds.  I turned around to give him a handshake.  Guess what he did………………………………………….he gave me hug! GO FIGURE!  Doesn’t matter the crush is gone.

 

Weekend kit and kaboodle

I’ve been doing really well on my FB hiatus.  On Saturday I loaded that app back onto my phone.   I won’t o.d. this time.

I posted awhile back about wanting to be more active in my church.  I’m a very social person and I wanted to meet more people.  It makes coming to church that much more enjoyable.  I joined the choir and volunteered to be the social coordinator when they were looking for one.  I planned our first social outing at a bowling alley.  We had a great time.  I’m probably the lowest scoring bowler of all time, but I talk a good game…lol  Slowly but surely I’m meeting more people…they at least know my name now.

Sunday T had a friend come over.  They’re working on a science project.  This young lady is so nice and respectful.  I love it when I see my girls socializing with the right kinda people.  I’m doing something right.

This weekend we all played bible scatt.er.gories.  The letter was ‘B’ and the category was fruits of the spirit.  Bird put down ‘banana’ and I hollared!

I went to the gyn.  I absolutely adore my gyn…besides other things she’s brown like me and I love that.  It seems the last time I’d been there was in 2005!  She asked if I’d been cheating on her.  I know I’d made an appt at least a year or two ago, and wind up canceling due to my crazy work schedule at the time.  I’ve gotta do a better job of taking care of myself because 5 years is crazy.  She coughed and cleared out some cobwebs, but other than that I’m good.

Speaking of that area.  I returned to the gym on Wednesday…first time since my boxing episode.  I took a spinning class.  My crotch…tush area has not been the same since.

My mom and I were texting while watching the Ama.z-ing.-R.ac.e.  She said “black people need to stay off these kinds of shows…it’s embarassing”! ROFL  My mother is one of the funniest/sarcastic people I know.  My brother married a half black/half puerto rican girl.  Years ago my mother asked if she could make her some spanish rice and beans.  When she said no…she didn’t know how..my mother said “ya know…this is why people need to stop inter-marrying…no one knows how to cook anything”.

Needless to say we were both sad that the attorney moms didn’t make it further.  They seem like great gals.

I was thinking yesterday about when I’d ever meet a good guy.  I then wondered for a moment what am I doing, what can I offer the good great guy that I’m interested in.  I’m in school – progressing towards a career that I hope I’ll love.  I keep a comfortable home.  I’m known for bringing a smile to a person’s face.  I’m generous and nurturer.  When I’m in a relationship I’m that man’s biggest cheerleader.  There are other things that I can work on, and I will.

For one, I’m going to start taking more time out for me.  With school, work..and the girls I often feel run down.  I haven’t had a mani or pedi in many months.  For one I’ve been trying to conserve funds, and another reason is that I simply haven’t made the time.  My nails haven’t looked ratty, but I always feel extra special when they have some shine.  I did my own mani/pedi this weekend.  There’s no excuse why I can’t do this on regular basis.  I already do my own ‘do.  I have some bad hair days, but thankfully they are few and far between.  Last night I soaked in the time.  I very rarely do this, but I wanted to pamper myself.  I used Patrice’s scrub and it felt and smelled soooo good.  I massaged myself and really took my time.  I absolutely have to make time to do this weekly.  Afterwards I gave myself a mini-facial.

When it was all said and done I felt rejuvenated.  There’s nothing like a great aromatherapy massage but this came close.  This morning I woke up feel fresh.  The mood I was in carried over as well.  I didn’t rush this morning.  I had a smile on my face all the way to work.  Smiling more..having a pleasant expression on my face is going to be something that I work on.  In a rush there’s no way I can have a smile…I’m rushing.  I walked with my back straight and my head held high.  I would imagine that these little things do alot to attract the right man.  I’m already a confident woman.  It’s evident after having a conversation with me.  However, how can I convey this before a man has an opportunity to chat it up with me?  Coming in this morning I know that in every step I exuded confidence.    I’ve heard from more than one man that confidence is the sexiest thing about a woman.

Since I’ve cut meat out of my diet I’ve been more conscious about what I eat.  There’s more that I need to learn, and I’m going to start working on this.  Whenever I meet that special one I want to be able to prepare delicious, but healthy meals for him.  I’m going to start drinking more water.  I have a ma.gi.c bu-l-let. that I got at least a year ago.  I took it out of the box, got intimidated and haven’t taken it out since.  That changes this week.  I want my skin to glow.  I’m going to start a juicing regimen (will likely do a separate post about this).  These are things that I have to make time for.  First for myself and then for him.

Friday I left work early because of the snow storm.  On my way to the train (ugh) I passed a man that caught my eye and I blushed smiled.  I must have caught his too because he called out to me although I was a few feet away at that point.  When I think back on it I should have let him take those few steps towards me..in any case I took the steps toward him.  He had an accent that I couldn’t put my finger on but it was sexy and he was an attractive man.  He asked me if I was enjoying the snow and I said no…lol  Then he asked if I was headed home and I said yes.  After that he smiled and said ok, get home safe..I said thank you and turned away.  For the life of me I don’t know why he didn’t offer his card or ask my name or something??? Oh well.

Weekend turn-out

Saturday night I let T host a “Girls Night In”, and they had a great time.  They bobbed for apples…that was hilarious.  Rest easy knowing that each girl had her own bowl…just the thought…eeew.

It was so nice to have an extra hour of sleep…it would have been even better had I actually used it.  We were up early Sunday to go visit an old friend who lives in PA now.  It’s been a few years since I’ve seen or even really spoken with her.  We caught up and she fed us real good.  Then I remembered how annoying her husband is.  You know how some men will grab a plate and then head out to the man cave….well not him.  He’s like he’s vying for attention “ME ME ME” and he talks so loud.  So whenever she was speaking about something that he wanted to add to he’d just start talking crazy loud, then she’d go up like 100 decibels without skipping a beat! crazy.

She gave me some sofrito of her homemade sofrito…I can’t wait to add it to my dishes…yum.

They have joined this sales company and of course they gave me the pitch.  I thought it was very interesting.  After I do some research I’m going to poll you guys to get your feedback.

So me and that guy that I was getting to know…that’s dead and stinkin’.  We got into it a lil bit after he sent me a text asking if I’m interested in him.  First of all, what is a grown man doing send me a text to discuss something like that? Immediate turn-off.  I asked “what have you given me to be interested in? “Yes I want a christian man, but he needs to have a personality.  Everything that came out of his mouth was “praise the Lord” and while I’m not knocking that…what else do you have to offer??  I was just waiting for him to show me the nails in his hands and tell me he’s Jesus! He’s so heaven bound that he’s no earthly good.   I’m done.

Hitched

Bird:  Are you gonna get married? 

Me: I would like too

Bird: Will I have to call him Daddy?

Me: No…what would you want to call him?

Bird: Daddy

I don’t know why she said this. I guess its some void she feels.  R has been making a much greater effort since his mom passed.  I’m hoping its not temporary.

So often I get caught up in I want x,y and z…you know…my list of requirements in a mate.   Then He reminds me that He is preparing to give me someone not only for today, but for 10, 15, 20 years…a lifetime partner.  I know what I’d like now, but I have NO clue what I’m going to need then.  I gotta fall back and hush.

There is someone who I had no intention of entertaining, but for the past two weeks I have felt compelled to. I really don’t know why other than feeling that I would hate to block my blessing if he is that…soo…we’ll see.  I’ll keep ya posted.

Randomness

My Aug 8th party is pink and white.  My Aug 22nd party is all white.  I hate that.

I played in my make-up last night.  I need much more play time…lol

Insomnia is back.

I went to the gym…early this AM.  It’s been a minute.  I didn’t stretch.  I’m soooooooo sore.

Alot of prayers are being answered.  Its a joy to highlight them in my book!

I’ve OFFICIALLY started to study for the lsat.  I need a head start considering my fall and spring course load.

I’m going to register in April to take it in June.

Isn’t that right around the corner???

I start my 2nd summer class on Friday.

My mom called me type A…again..last night. 

The summer is over…finito…not that we ever REALLY had one.

I saw Mr. K recently…he said I lost my butt…I agree *eyes stretched*.

How tragic.  I hate when that happens.

The girls were supposed to hook up with TBS…she had to cancel this go round.

I don’t particularly care for ATL, but I think I’m going to apply for a school out there.  I have alot of friends there. I wouldn’t be lonely.

I think I may be homesick in NC.  I’m sure I’d get over it in time.  I hope.

If you gonna pray why worry…if you gonna worry why pray.  Right?

Sometimes men are wayyyy worse than women when it comes to relationships that are bad for them.

I do not have an all white outfit and I DON’T wanna buy one.

I’m hosting a RHOA shindig tomorrow night….can’t WAIT!

AR Gal had a good idea wit them shirts.  I’d wear one…lol

I miss them girls SILLLLLLY!

I haven’t worn those suede magenta shoes yet…I don’t know what to wear them with.  If these chicks let me pick my own colors to wear to they parties MAYBE I could!  I’m lyin’…I ain’t hardly wearing them shoes to a party on my first go round.

My chance to make it to the beach went right out the flippin’ window on Sunday.

I can’t WAIT for Cancun.  There will be 4 of us.  Easy breezy gals…no drama.

I’m ready to plot another.

I’m sooo glad those journalists were released.  I can’t imagine the agony for the families.

I watched More to Love last night.

My cat is needy.  Have you EVER heard of such?

Hooking up after work with some of my fav girls.  That’ll be fun.

Moses and I are trying to re-schedule.

I’m not calling it a date, BUT I would like to do more dates during the day.  

I’m challenging myself.  For a week, I will not vent/complain/seek counsel from anyone else other than God.  This may seem trivial, but I’d like to see how this works out.  Keep me in line.

My favorite scent right now is Pink Sugar

I can really tell the difference with the henna.  I don’t plan to use Indigo again.  Regular semi perm is just fine for me.

Its HUMP DAY!

Who’s next?

Catch-up

Wednesday

I had to report to jury duty on Wednesday.  I was soo looking forward to it as a mini-vacation.  My book *check*  Music *check* comfortable clothing *check*.  I can go to bed later and wake up later…*check*. They normally keep you 3 days and then release you if you don’t get called.  My name was called on day 1 and I was dismissed within 2 hours.  I was pissed…lol  My grandiose plans of low pressure and low stress out the window.