Rock

A week or so I was disturbed when I heard that Marvin Sapp’s wife passed away. After hear more news I found out it was due to cancer. Cancer hits too close to home for me, and when I hear about it I get angry. I actually look at it as though it’s a mass murderer. It is. Marvin Sapp is one of my most favorite gospel singers, aside from being entertained, his lyrics…he turns it out.

Since I heard the news I’ve kept his family in prayer because who doesn’t know how devastating death is? To lose a spouse, someone you pledged forever to, someone who you shared a bed with daily. That’s devastating.

When I came across this video I thought “dang, this is hard, he’s gonna be in a bad shape.” The words to this song are beautiful. The lyrics could lodge a mountain in anyone’s throat. This is his song…his lyrics…his wife’s funeral. This had to be unbearable.

After watching this! How about I was the mess…for me it was unbearable! Jesus makes the difference ya’ll. He promises to be a rock for you if you let him.

Seattle

The weather in NY has been so dreary, chilly and rainy.  I half way want to throw a fit!  I’ve never been to Seattle, but I imagine this is how that weather is.  I can’t imagine how Seatle folk deal….I can’t.  So yesterday was a piss pot day for me.  I had to work really hard to encourage myself.  There are times when my singleness seems to overwhelm me.  There are triggers.

Weekend turn-out

It went by wayyyyy too fast first of all, but here goes it.

On Friday my girlfriend and I went downtown and picked up some Henna.  Henna is plant that some indians use for body art, but it also has great hair benefits.  I love the texture of Bird’s hair, but as soon as that bad boi drys…its like the sahara desert…even with sealers.  I tried Henna and I must say I’m pleased with the results.  It does however release a dye that gives her hair a brown/auburn tint in the sun.  She loves it.  I plan to do the same to my hair this weekend.

This slideshow requires JavaScript.

Saturday night my church hosted Howard Gospel Choir and they did not sing…..THEY SAAAAAAAAANG.  It was RIDICULOUS how good they were…really…REALLLLY.   I’ve heard really good groups and choirs before, but this group of people were phenomenal. 

The tore the roof off! Right now they are on their spring tour, if you have an opportunity to see them you absolutely should.

I posted a few months back that the church I go to is big and its been difficult to meet people.  Well at the concert I sat behind a woman. When she turned around she asked if my name was Kelly.  It turns out that she remembers me from many moons ago…she remembers my brother and my mom.  She said that she’d seen me a few times and had been meaning to make her way over to me.  She then introduced me to 3 other women that seem really nice…I’m smiling about my answered prayer.

When R and I initially seperated I took T to a pyschologist.  Over the years she has mentioned that she felt like she should start seeing a therapist.  An incident occured in school this past week and I thought it would be a good idea to act now.  On Sunday I took T to meet with a psychologist.  She’s the same woman I took T to before, but now she’s 45 mins away…ugh.  My prayer is that she benefits.

Wrap it up

Its a good day in the neighborhood…but on Tuesday? hmph…I was in class..T called my cell, its 6:45pm and she’s still aftercare.  R didn’t pick them up.  I reached him and he said he was still in the ER….I’m fuming…I said “Look, if you were dying you’d be dead already or they would have admitted you by now”…I yelled something about him being selfish and hung up.  I told my instructor I needed to leave, she gave me some work to take home and I headed to pick up the girls.  When I arrived they were all bundled and waiting.  We got in the car and T said “Mommy, how come we were there so long?“  I responded “When you called me I was in class, today your Dad was supposed to pick you up“..she said “I’m sorry, how come you’re not rushing us? Cuz you don’t want to take out your anger on us“..I answered her honestly and said yes.  Although I was cool as ice I guess it was written all over my face.  At that point I decided that I was going to return to class.  That monkey can’t stop this show. 

I bit the bullet this week and joined the gym.  My neighbor and I went last night and we were both STARVING after…undecided about what to eat we decided to grab a healthy sandwich from subway.  Subway was closed so we went next store to Wing Street…I got the 10pc garlic parmesean chicken…does that make any sense?????? smh  I didn’t fall asleep until well after 1am.

I’m all done with my blood work and my ultrasound, so I should hear from the dr. re: a treatment plan soon.

Yesterday morning I decided to host a christmas party/game night at my house on the 20th.  I’m excited about it.  Some friends will get to meet da Principal.  I asked if he’ll be my date..he said “of course, you know I got your back” lol  We’re going to get a tree on Saturday, I’ll have the girls decorate it on Wednesday unless I have them before then.

I’m in the holiday spirit, I’ve got shopping to do to decorate.  I’m not great at party decorating, but I’ve checked out some sites and I have an idea of how I wanna transform my place.  I see mistletoe…lol Spades, Taboo and Catch Phrase will be a few of the games we’ll play.  I need a bunch of good xmas music to play..any suggestions??

I Told The Storm

This is one my favorite songs.  I’m a lover of music…..particularly gospel music. When I’m going through something, music moves me like nothing else can.

I love the lyrics to this song.

Even though your winds blow
I want you to know
You cause me no alarm
Cause I’m safe in his arms
Even though your rain falls
I can still make this call
Let there be peace
Now I can say go away
I command you to move today
Because of faith I have a new day
The sun will shine–I will be okay
That’s what I told the storm!

I told the storm to pass
Storm you can’t last
Go away – I command you to move today
Storm – When God speaks
Storm – You’ve got to cease
That’s what I told the storm!

Wind stop blowing!
Flood stop flooding!
Lightning stop flashing!
Breakers stop dashing!
Darkness go away!
Clouds move away!
That’s what I told the storm!

Death can’t shake me!
My job can’t make me!
Bills can’t break me!
Diease can’t take me!
Enemies can’t drown me!
Cause God surround’s me!
That’s what I told the storm!

Enjoy

I Told The Storm by Greg O’Quinn Featuring Patricia Jacobs